CBT you can kiss my feet !

The hospital won't see me again for anothe test, and recommended I do CBT.

Here's the links i've found so far.
My anxiety test level was 4 and depession level was 6, overall 7.

The site offers free downloads, online feel better courses etc
Funny thing is, these bloody case book doctors can't just accept the fact when I start crying, waffle or get tongue tied and sometimes stuttter, or get annoyed it's with the sheer frustration of living with these sleep issues, stomach issues.

Some of the nurses at the new doctors surgery are quite patronising and ignorant to the fact, or maybe they're just making light conversation.

Yeah!, like making telling me the cold weather makes your tired and sleepy.

Tell me something I don't know wumin!

Doctor has said he can't give me 10mg ritalin until the specialist approves it. So for my next ' specialist ' meeting, I can present to them resources i've found and tried along with previous self management attempts.

Afterwards, if he's doesn't approve, then, i'm gonna say, sure that's fine.....can we then concentrate on the damage inflicted on my central nervous system, by the several years of having a B!12 defiency at 122 levels. ( and watch the twats face hit the floor )

When/if he dismisses that, I will offer myself to whatever trials are available, and ask if we could eliminate the possibility of brain damage / hypothalamic damage being a possible root cause to my sleep problems.

Then of course, I will use my imagination to visualise the patronising useless piece of shit eat my words and kiss my feet.

I am so sick of being treated as if i'm malingering, when there's evident results, and I will no longer be fobbed of because of politics. I've had enough!

http://www.livinglifetothefull.com

http://www.fiveareas.com/resourcearea/

http://www.moodgym.anu.edu.au/welcome

www.ultrasis.com

www.fearfighter.com

www.calipso.co.uk

www.mind.org.uk

http://www.moodjuice.scot.nhs.uk/



books - Mind over mood: a cognitive therapy treatment manual for clients. D Greenberger and CA Padesky, published by Guilford.

Reinventing your life. JE Young and JS Klosko, published by Plume.

The feeling good handbook. DD Burns, published by Penguin.

CFS links n pdf's

links found when googled Myhill followup


http://www.nice.org.uk/nicemedia/pdf/CG53FullGuidance.pdf

http://www.dh.gov.uk/dr_consum_dh/groups/dh_digitalassets/@dh/@en/documents/digitalasset/dh_4139437.pdf

http://www.cam-me.org.uk/newsletters/news-march2009.htm

http://www.thehealthierlife.co.uk/natural-health-articles/chronic-fatigue-syndrome/chronic-fatigue-syndrome-treatments-90876.html ( has an annoying pop up )

http://www.second-opinions.co.uk/CFS-and-mito-paper-Jan-2009-IJCEM812001.pdf

http://files.get-fitt.com/Documents/cfs_book%20Jan%202009.pdf

http://files.get-fitt.com/Documents/Mito%20package.pdf


http://www.aerotoxic.org/index.php/advice-and-medical-help

ritalin

http://www.ncumbria.nhs.uk/acute/about/foi/disclosurelog/requests/401_450/SupportingDocs/000438_01.pdf

http://www.emea.europa.eu/humandocs/PDFs/EPAR/xyrem/324056en1.pdf

http://www.warringtonms.org.uk/newsletterpdf/April%2007%20nl.pdf

http://www.mentalhealth.com/drug/p30-r03.html

http://www.herbsetc.com/Directory/k.htm

http://ukpmc.ac.uk/articlerender.cgi?artid=1557138

http://www.congrexnetwork.com/dbs/ESRS2008/files/ESRS%20Final%20Prog.pdf

sleep log, food logs pdf

http://science.education.nih.gov/supplements/nih3/sleep/guide/nih_sleep_masters.pdf

http://www.healthysleep.com/healthysleep/cmsdocuments/National-Sleep-Foundations-Sleepiness-Diary.pdf

http://www.ambiencr.com/docs/pdf/sleep_diary.pdf

http://www.shiregps.simply.com.au/documents/MH_Mood%20Diary.pdf

Narcolepsy vs idiopathic hypersomnolence , PDF

http://www.sleeping.org.uk/news/documents/Guidelines.pdf

http://www.guideline.gov/summary/summary.aspx?ss=15&doc_id=10469&nbr=5492#s23

http://www.nice.org.uk/nicemedia/pdf/TA139UNG.pdf

http://www.rcpe.ac.uk/journal/issue/journal_32_3/paper_5.pdf

http://www.touchneurology.com/files/article_pdfs/garcia-borreguero.pdf

http://bnpa.org.uk/doc/HANDBOOK.pdf

http://www.otispregnancy.org/pdf/methamphetamines.pdf

http://www.unison.org.uk/file/Workers%20Required%20to%20Sleep%20In%20(WTD).pdf

http://www.investinme.org/Documents/PDFdocuments/c6a_mecfsguidelines.pdf

http://www.mstrust.org.uk/downloads/exercises.pdf

http://bnpa.org.uk/doc/Summer2009.pdf

http://www.iotf.org/media/euobesity.pdf

http://www.siestaawareness.org/pages/siesta-facts.php


http://www.acnr.co.uk/diary.pdf

generic

Today, the new doctor gave me ritalin to try. Seaching google and the sleep forums on this medication, I found a few interesting links.

" I take about 50mg of Ritalin and also can't take anything else because I need something with a generic." one user posted.

I've not a clue of all this stuff. I'm still learning. But the ' something generic ' got me thinking. Call me dumb, call me blonde...I don't know what the difference is. So if I've studied it correctly, it's the cheaper version of the good stuff, that probably doesn't work as well as the patent version.

I was also googling xyrem and found this link.

http://www.dh.gov.uk/prod_consum_dh/groups/dh_digitalassets/@dh/@en/documents/digitalasset/dh_4114251.pdf

http://www.scottishmedicines.org.uk/smc/files/sodium_oxybate_Xyrem_(246-06).pdf

http://www.addforums.com/forums/showthread.php/showthread.php?t=18700

14th December 2009

Woke up 7.30am.
Fried egg roll. Using organic extra virgin olive oil.

9.30am tired. I've had my usual x2 200mg provigil. No supplements yet.
Just away to take them now.

I hate taking them. There's a lot. It's a full time job in itself, just keeping on top of this sleep disorder.